in summary

The past two weeks have been productive. I did lots of "firsts":

• wrote a resume (which I've never done before without a drink)
  
• searched for jobs (which I've never done before without a drink)
• wrote cover letters (which I've never done before without a drink)
• applied for jobs (which I've never done before without a drink)
• had a great job interview (which I've never done before without a drink)
• helped my dad fix my car (which I've never done before)
  
• took a broken camcorder in for service (which I've never done before)
  
• ... all while being in some sort of mysterious relationship insanity with my boyfriend (I've never been in relationship with such drastic communication problems before.)
  

The amazing thing is that I haven't had a drink!

You need to understand -- this is coming from someone who used to drink over the anxiety caused by answering the front door. The past two weeks have been utter hell in terms of anxiety -- but I haven't had a drink!

Thank goodness for AA meetings. It's like "connect-the-dots". All I have to do is stay sober until the next meeting ... I can do that.

Within this emotionally chaotic time, there were many moments of serenity -- and they came at the most difficult times.

I believe that if a truly serious life event happens in the future, I will know how to stay sober and find serenity. "There by the grace of God go I."

Today, I'm grateful for ...

• being 163 days sober
• experiencing serenity
• all of those sobriety "first times"
• my awesome dad -- who fixed my car! Yay!
• my great family & precious puppy
• that weird boyfriendish guy. I still love him, even though things are really weird right now.
  
• the nice people who read my blog
• God, who kept me sober