The Possible

It's so awesome to have the chance to start over again. I'm no longer a slave to a controlled substance. I can make choices today that I could not make before.

I can choose whether to drink or not. That's still flabbergasting to me. In the past, I felt no more control over drinking than I felt over breathing. I couldn't just "not breathe". I couldn't just "not drink". I had to drink in order to function. I'm so grateful that I no longer need to do that!

I desperately wanted this freedom a year ago, but I never believed it was possible. I sank into inconsolable distress. If someone told me that this freedom was possible and that I would soon experience it -- I would have not believed.

But it IS possible, and it CAN happen. If you're suffering, you don't have to anymore. When you're ready, check out some resources -- or if you're confused, post a comment:

• Alcoholics Anonymous
• The Big Book Online
• Is AA for You?
• Find an AA Meeting
• For Friends & Family
• Blogs of Other Recovering Alcoholics
• Sober Recovery Forums

Today, I am grateful for:

• Being 50 days sober! Woohoo!
• God's patience. I'm so glad He let this miracle wait for me.
• My supportive and loving family -- little puppy "brother" included :)
• My supportive and loving AA family, online and offline
• The program of AA
• A new great friend :)
• The wonderful people who read my blog
• The saints who send supportive comments and emails
• The power of this day