Sober since April 6, 2006


Saturday, August 26, 2006

Minor Miracle

I went to an AA meeting this morning and listened to two speakers. Regarding the job issue, I realized that I'm facing the following obstacles:

  • pride
  • self-centeredness
  • fear of people
  • fear of change
  • fear of rejection

Note, "lack of job availability" isn't in the list. "Lack of education" isn't in the list. All of my obstacles are psychological, and nothing more.

So for the first time in months, I worked on my résumé. Best yet, I'm not upset or anxious about it. I never even felt uncomfortable. This has never happened for me, ever. Even before I started drinking alcoholically, my résumé scared the hell out of me. But it was all okay today.

I suppose the molehills that we turn into mountains can always be changed back into molehills.

I just need to remember all of this when it comes time to apply and interview. Everything in its time ... :)

Today, I'm especially grateful for ...
  • being 142 days sober
  • the nice people who read my blog
  • my supportive boyfriend and family
  • God, whose spiritual spectacles can put any blurred circumstance into focus


dAAve said...

Honesty, Open-Mindedness, Willingness.

They apply to so many aspects of our lives.

Anonymous said...

"I suppose the molehills that we turn into mountians can always be changed back into molehills "...........Right there!! Theres that strange person again.See Ya!

Gwen said...

Happy 142!

Amazing how a few days changes how we see things ~ thanks for posting.


Trudging said...

Good for you for working on that resume.

Sober Chick said...

Many times I have trouble allowing the process to occur. However when we can step back as you are and see it from afar it we allow it to begin -- the process. It is quite beautiful.

142! Awesome!!!!