Revelation of "Duh"
Topic:
Insight
Went to a meeting this morning, and the topic was ... (drumroll please) ... unmanageability.
The first step of AA says:
"We admitted we were powerless over alcohol, and that our lives had become unmanageable."
So I sat there with my little notebook and made a list of things I'm powerless over. There's the obvious crap like alcohol, feelings, emotions, and people.
Then I had a profound revelation:
"I'm powerless over the past."
Well, it was profound to me anyway. It's obvious to everyone else in the world. I'm "special" in the sense that I grasp the obvious much later than everyone else. Hence I'm an alcoholic, and one of the dumbest ones at that.
But the concept of being powerless over the past ... it feels like something that's going to help me straighten out the mess in my head.
"Sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly ..." And sometimes at a complete death crawl. But it's better than nothing.
3 comments:
Awesome that right.. You doing great..
It's not a matter of being dumb, or being smart.
It's simply that there are many things we've never thought about before. Don't beat yourself up for that.
That's why I keep going back to meetings; I hear stuff that's new to me all the time and I'm 52 friggin' years old.
With God ALL things are possible:-)
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