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Wednesday, February 07, 2007

desire to know God

From 24 Hours A Day, meditation for February 6:

"God finds, amid the crowd, a few people who follow Him, just to be near Him, just to dwell in His presence. A longing in the Eternal Heart my be satisfied by these few people. I will let God know that I seek just to dwell in His presence, to be near Him, not so much for teaching or a message, as just for Him. It may be that the longing of the human heart to be loved for itself is something caught from the Great Divine Heart.

"I pray that I may have a listening ear, so that God may speak to me. I pray that I may have a waiting heart, so that God may come to me."

Reading that yesterday made me stop and think ... Yes, I pray every day. But how much of it is out of selfish motives? Do I really want to share a spiritually intimate relationship with God, or am I just praying out of "duty"?

Lately, it's just been out of duty. I've prayed because it was the right thing to do -- not because I was interested in building a relationship with God. It's been more like a business transaction than anything else.

I didn't notice that until now. Interesting stuff.

4 comments:

Noor Azman Othman GBE said...

I know what you mean but it IS the right thing to do.

Wish you well.

Anonymous said...

The "I"ness is such a small part of the mind.If thou knowest thine own self, thou knowest God.Be still.See Ya

dAAve said...

Praying is a new "habit" for me. I never did it until after I got sober. Sometimes, I must "fake it til I make it." But I do it in order that the ac itself becomes a habit.
Good topic.

Trudging said...

It's a new habit but, a good one.