Sober since April 6, 2006


Thursday, September 07, 2006

A Minor Miracle

This is going to sound stupid ... but whatever. We all have our deficiencies.

Today, for the first time in my life, I:

  • searched for jobs online;
  • found one that seemed to stand out;
  • wrote up a cover letter;
  • readied my resume; and
  • applied for the job

-- all without taking a drink!

It's just a tiny thing in the grand scheme of things ... but it's a big deal to me. I've never been able to do that before without taking a few drinks first. It's just too upsetting and stressful.

The cravings still came though. There were several times today that I instinctively thought, "I need a drink". It felt as normal as the thought, "I need to breathe". But at least this time I could identify it and shrug it off without giving in or running away.

I'm glad to finally be able to do this job searching without the bottle. I need to stay sober, but I also need a job. Being financially self-supporting feels like the next right thing to do at this point.


Anonymous said...

Great job TKD. The Bible talks about "walking in the Spirit" or "Christian Walk". A walk is made up of many tiny steps.

Great job on taking one of the hardest of those tiny steps. I am so proud of you!

- Friend of God.


None of that sounds stupid.
I see you,

dAAve said...

It doesn't sound stupid. It sound like progress.

simsample said...

Wow, this sounds like great progress to me! Well done, I really hope you get a reply from this job application!

Trudging said...

Wow, good job.

Gwen said...

That is not a little thing it is a big thing. I used booze for anything and everything. Took showers with a glass just outside the curtain at times. All the "first times" are great.

Congrats and I hope it works out.