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Monday, September 18, 2006

I've done wrong

Today, serenity is coming from knowing that my own mistakes and character defects have caused the relationship problems that have been tearing me up lately.

Over the past couple of weeks, I have been trying to find serenity by finding answers to these problems. But that didn't work. Although I found the answers yesterday, the problems are still there today, because the answers I found can't fix the problems.

Why? I found answers to the wrong problems. My real problems aren't with the relationship -- they're with me.

I need to realize and accept that these "relationship problems" are nothing more than my own character defects manifested outside of myself. Sure, some elements weren't exactly my fault. But when I look hard enough, I can see how I contributed to them. And honestly acknowledging my faults and failures is critical. I feel a sense of peace already.

Sometimes problems can't be fixed. Sometimes wounds simply need to heal. And I'm powerless over it all. All I can do is accept it, own up to it, and do the next right thing.

Right or wrong, that's where I'm finding serenity today.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

this is shannon.. sorry its not letting me post my name.. weird but I can totally relate with you

Anonymous said...

This is where the steps can save you. Talk all of this over with your sponsor.

dAAve

Name: tkdjunkie said...

Thank you, Shannon and Daave. This is definitely something I'm going to share with my sponsor.

As for the blog not letting you post your name with your comments -- I upgraded to Blogger Beta. I didn't realize it was going to be this glitchy! Sorry for the confusion.