Sober since April 6, 2006


Wednesday, June 28, 2006

First Step Officially Taken

Believe it or not, I haven't actually "officially" worked any steps with a sponsor yet ... until tonight. Why so late? Well if it were up to me, I'd be on step 12 already. But it's a good thing that the timing is not up to me ... it's up to God and my sponsor.

So my sponsor and I went through Step 1 tonight: "We admitted we were powerless over alcohol and that our lives had become unmanageable."

I'm glad to have finally finished something "officially" -- although I realize I will need to take this step repeatedly. It's the most dangerous step to forget. It's why so many people with various years of sobriety end up drinking again. They forget that they are powerless over alcohol, and they believe they can control themselves. But they never can ...

Today, I'm grateful for ...

  • being 83 days sober
  • completing Step 1 "officially"
  • my gracious sponsor
  • the program of AA
  • my sweet boyfriend
  • my precious family
  • my adorable puppy
  • the beautiful weather
  • air conditioning
  • the awesome people who read my blog
  • God, who won't leave me alone (even if I want him to)


Tab said...

hey cool post...
the first step in always the hardest they say isn't it?

Honestly, I read my codependency recovery lit'for a couple of years until I realized those steps work for me

Great to read your blog.
Thanks for sharing ~

sirreene said...

It is a life time program. There is no need to rush the steps. I have never understood anyone with 30 days who is on step 5 anyhow. The most important step is the first and if you work on that for years that is fine. Take your time.

dAAve said...

This is the only step that you need to achieve completely, perfectly and 100%.
And remember it every day, knowing that more shall be revealed.

SCoUt said...

Ya, what dAAve said. As well as, learn how to apply it to all areas of your life, too. "We tried to practice these princples in all our affairs."
The steps are our solution, so work them as quickly as you can get them from your head to your heart.
But that's a journey that is a requirement.
Happy Day 85!

Anonymous said...

Honesty feels good,dont you think?


Wonderful post....and I think you are awesome!
I see you,

new_eyes said...

quite common to put it off awhile, and it might be for the best, even. I didn't start the steps in earnest until my 8th month, with a sponsor who really insisted I read and make progress through the steps each day. I think my rebelliousness had to cool all that time. Very grateful anyway. (Once you've done the 4th and 5th step, it's like there's no turning back. You wouldn't want to, and you will likely have a curious spiritual sort of experience as you grow.) Congrats on the upcoming three month chip!

tkdjunkie said...

Thanks, all :)

I was nervous about the process of "sharing" in person with my sponsor. But it really wasn't that bad. It's nice to get the nervous "first" out of the way :)