a new meeting
Went to a new meeting tonight. My sponsor recommended I try it. I really didn't want to go -- I wanted to go to my regular meeting instead. I don't like going to new meetings.
When I got to the new place, it was huge. The parking lot was packed. I parked the car and immediately started coming up with reasons to leave. "I don't like big meetings. There are too many people here. I'm tired. I have a headache. It's going to take 30 minutes to get out of the parking lot when this is over. I want to go home and go to bed!" ... etc.
This was like a reverse flashback to my old drinking days: I'd sit outside the liquor store and try to reason my way out. Now I'm sitting outside AA meetings trying to reason my way out. Go figure.
Anyway, I ended up going to the meeting, and I'm glad that I did.
Today, I'm especially grateful for ...
- being 235 days sober
- living in an area where there are so many AA meetings that I can't decide where to go on any given day
- having a sponsor who makes recommendations for me
- having a job to wake up for in the morning
- looking forward to my homegroup meeting Wednesday night
- getting good news from one of my homegroup chicas
- the many awesome people in this program ...
- being tired enough to sleep tonight
- God, because He always provides a way to do the right thing.
6 comments:
Cool. going against our natural stubborn mule-like resistance to 'new ideas' shows us how wrong our reluctant 'instincts' are. it's quite hard staying open to new ideas and staying teachable. i still think i know best!!, but I go along with the 'new idea' anyway. i don't think we (meaning us alkys) were really designed to be teachable. i have to work against my stubborness in the company of people who i KNOW know better than me to this day! ah well! We do love a comfortable rut!
I know what you mean about having a lot of meetings to choose from, it is a wonderful gift.
I am glad your sponsor suggested it! MOstly glad you listened and took her suggestion! I still have a hard time going to new meetings LOL for me, its the comfort zone thing... that is something I would like to change.. thanks for reminding me of that Have a great day!
That is wonderful you stepped out of your comfort zone and did not allow your mind to deter you. And what a great comparison to how the dilemma you use to experience can manifest -- excellent recognition!
New meetings? Lol. I know what you mean. And I'm usually glad when I do try a new one.
your sponsor sounds like a slice of heaven! gosh you must be superglad to find her (she's a lady, right?)
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