Sober since April 6, 2006

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Monday, October 09, 2006

day one at planet cubicle


My career experience up until now has been running cash registers and stocking aisles with merchandise. This is my first job at a cubicle farm. It's so different.

First of all, a giant room filled with a maze of cubicles creates an unnatural feeling. It's like walking into a rat maze. There must be a bit of cheese to find somewhere. Then there are the meetings -- the senseless waste of time meetings. "We're having a small meeting to prepare for the BIG meeting later this afternoon about the office Halloween party." Eh? I'm accustomed to being bullwhipped into working FASTER and getting stuff DONE. This slow-pace environment is so different.

Something interesting: When I worked in retail, I used to HATE the people at the corporate office. They got paid holidays off while my friends and I had to work. I grumbled and groaned and absolutely hated those spoiled-rotten-retail-corporate-office-jerks.

And now, I have BECOME one of those spoiled-rotten-retail-corporate-office-jerks! It's an odd feeling, because I vividly remember the animosity I had toward people who "had it better than me". I think I still harbor that same kind of animosity in different ways. I need to cut that out.

I wrote up a schedule for AA meetings that I can attend around my job schedule. There's a good meeting I can attend every day of the week -- except for Mondays. There's only one group I can attend on Mondays, and I've been there several times before. But it has always given me the creeps! I don't know if it's the strange church or the odd layout of the meeting, but something about it doesn't feel right. Maybe I just need to get over it and make myself go anyway.


Today, I'm grateful for ...

  • being 186 days sober
  • my nice family
  • the nice people who read my blog
  • viewing something I once hated from the other side
  • experiencing a new situation that requires me to place trust in God
  • not falling down dead on my first day at work (I've got a cold/flu/thing)
  • going to bed early tonight
  • God, who must be laughing at me (but that's okay) :P

6 comments:

lash505 said...

Yikes the cubical.. I would panic. That is cool that you have meetings by your work. That would make the cubicals workable for me.

Sober Chick said...

Do you get to personalize your cubby? Like push pins and pics and all?

Congrats on the new chapter you are entering in your life. More so, congrats on 186 days of sobriety thus far.

soft said...

We start on the bottom rung of the ladder and work/earn our way up. You patiently served your time on the bottom rung. ("My computer won't work. Oh? I have to turn it on? How do I do that? Do I have to plug it in first?") You have paid your "dues" and now it's time to move up. Progress is a good thing. Rewards. The way a successful life works! Kind of like when you were little, I would not let you eat a cookie before dinner as it would spoil your appetite. Now, not only can you eat a cookie before dinner if you want, but if that's ALL you want for dinner - hey, it's your call! I'm proud of you, Sweetie. It's your turn to enjoy the fun and yummy "cookies" in life. :-) Mommy ~

dAAve said...

Some good insights.
It will all be fine - and take advantage of all those meetings!

officesmurf said...
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officesmurf said...

Congratulations and good luck. I am a cubicle farm veteran of 12 years and I have some suggestions for you if it starts to drive you crazy. Please check out my link here: officesmurf.com

Sincerely,
OfficeSmurf