Sober since April 6, 2006

That's
days

Saturday, September 16, 2006

in summary

The past two weeks have been productive. I did lots of "firsts":

  • wrote a resume (which I've never done before without a drink)
  • searched for jobs (which I've never done before without a drink)
  • wrote cover letters (which I've never done before without a drink)
  • applied for jobs (which I've never done before without a drink)
  • had a great job interview (which I've never done before without a drink)
  • helped my dad fix my car (which I've never done before)
  • took a broken camcorder in for service (which I've never done before)
  • ... all while being in some sort of mysterious relationship insanity with my boyfriend (I've never been in relationship with such drastic communication problems before.)

The amazing thing is that I haven't had a drink!

You need to understand -- this is coming from someone who used to drink over the anxiety caused by answering the front door. The past two weeks have been utter hell in terms of anxiety -- but I haven't had a drink!

Thank goodness for AA meetings. It's like "connect-the-dots". All I have to do is stay sober until the next meeting ... I can do that.

Within this emotionally chaotic time, there were many moments of serenity -- and they came at the most difficult times.

I believe that if a truly serious life event happens in the future, I will know how to stay sober and find serenity. "There by the grace of God go I."

Today, I'm grateful for ...
  • being 163 days sober
  • experiencing serenity
  • all of those sobriety "first times"
  • my awesome dad -- who fixed my car! Yay!
  • my great family & precious puppy
  • that weird boyfriendish guy. I still love him, even though things are really weird right now.
  • the nice people who read my blog
  • God, who kept me sober

2 comments:

JJ said...

the nice people who read my blog

And you my friend are one of the nice people that read my blog.
I still see you,
JJ

Unknown said...

Firsts in sobriety are great!